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Tuesday, April 28, 2009

I WAS SHOCKED!!!

Yesterday evening when i was rejuvenating myself, abah texted me 'bz x petang ni?', i was wondering why??? of coz i wasnt bz coz the next exam is on Wednesday, he asked me to fetch him up at puduraya, i was flabbergastered, all of sudden without any prior info he's coming n suddenly wanted me to fecth him n pak lang. i called my mum for confirmation, my mum said that my aunt (mak njang) is dying n my father n pak lang wanna visit her, plus my parents didnt wanna tell me earlier coz m in d middle of sitting for exams. then i met abah at pudu n went straight to HKL, there were my cousin Kak Ina (my aunt's daugther), Kak Ngah n Abang (her adopted daughter n son, despite that, they are like our own blood family, no barrier is set and felt). i waited for half n hour b4 i cud get in the ICU ward. B4 that i asked a girl to look after abah's n pak lang's bags, n i gave my number if she wants to leave the place (propa!!!). When i entered the ward, truly she was dying, even the blood pressure shown on the machine screen was low. Abah, pak lang n I recited surah Yaasin together. Then my uncle (pak njang) arrived, he looked at the screen n mak njang's face, he burst into tears while covering his face with his two hands, he sobbed. He went straight to her (mak njang) face n whisper kalimah 'Syahadah' at her right ear while crying. He touched her face and hair while saying 'Pah...ni abang ni, kami smua ada kat sini', he continued touched her face and hair amid of sobbing. B4 this i only watched this kind moment on TV, but i cud see it for real. It really touched me. Then some more relatives came in, i kept looking at the screen, n the blood pressure was even lower, sometimes it increased, but frequently got lower. after half n hour, i went out to give the space for others. i took back abah's bag from the girl n thanked her. she gave me her brilliant smile, hehe. I waited there for an hour while other relatives visiting her. Then kak ina asked her husband to take us to her home to rest. we went to the just-renovated-house n prepared ourslves to sleep. That girl suddenly texted me 'Aslmulaikum, leh tnya skit, sapa yg sakit td?' , from then, we kept messaging each other n suddenly she texted me 'Fir, mak cik awak dah xde, sabar eh' , b4 that i asked Pak Lang was it true, then the sms comfirmed that mak njang dah meninggal, n pak lang n abah discussed n they dicided to go straight to the surau tomorow early in the morning. Loads of people there. After all, we went to Tanah Perkuburan Islam Lebuhraya Karak, there Mak Njang was buried. One more thing that realy striked me was that she died one hour after her birthday, her husband's birthday falls on the same day, n her daughter n son in law already bought presents for her and her husband. Al Fatihah...to Allahyarhamah Fatimah binti Mohammad...

Saturday, April 25, 2009

BAGUUUUUUUUSSSS...

Loads of things happened these few past days...some cherished the happiness otherwise some turned vice versa...nvrmind...Thank You Allah...my life is good now...coz i just dont bother with wateva disturbance buzzling me n i really need to control my mind & emotion and breaaath... I like being my now as i feel more comfortable n relieve...yes everybody has a skull in their closet...me either...it's just d matter whether it's tooo bad or just bad...i noe everything happened for some reasons, n i've grasped the significance of those black days of mine, n my now is on the baguuuusss path, back to the current dizziness which is to push myself to face the notes coz m sitting 4 exams...m damn lazy n i really governed by this sickness...cud someone plz give me huge dustbin so that i can vomit all the sickness into it and throw it to the deepest crack of the world... :-) gud luck to all my frens, put ur best endeavour and strive for the best...lets pray for us all...hope that everything will turn BAGUUUUUSSS...